Inspired by Life

yesterday i published a song that i kind of like...A LOT. not necessarily the screaming part, but the message. waiting on the Lord is one of those things that i've struggled with accepting. after all, don't i know best? my time line is better...things actually happen when i'm in charge, right? oh boy - guess again silly goose! there is verse after verse of God calling us and encouraging us to place our trust in Him and wait on Him to work. often when i try to take things into my own hands, force things to happen, i end up frustrated, wore-out, and things end up worse than when i started. and it's like God whispers "i told you to wait," but not in a little sibling annoying way of "i TOLD you so!" but more of a loving and tender reminder of the Lord saying "I was there all the way through your difficult time - just waiting for you to reach out and take my outstretched hand. I wanted so badly for you to rest confidently in Me and let Me work things...

"Yet the LORD longs to be gracious to you; therefore He will rise up to show you compassion. For the LORD is a God of justice. Blessed are all who wait for Him!" Isaiah 30:18 "Those who wait on the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles, they shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint." Isaiah 40:31 "The Lord is good to those who wait for Him, to the sould who seeks Him. It is good that one should hope and wait quietly for the salvation of the Lord." Lamentations 3:25-26

in my pursuit of acquiring self-less love - i know, insane ambition, but none the less - i'm pursuing it. and i have thus come to the conclusion that genuine self-less love is... IMPOSSIBLE! well, at least on my own strength. it was about a year ago that God pointed out some serious flaws i had been making in my walk with Him and helped me to see that i was not being kind or loving in my speech, my actions, or my thoughts towards those that i was closest to. so after my confession, repentance, and resolute in my heart to do better for God's glory as a testament of His love, i started pursuing "self-less love." i know you are familiar with 1 Corinthians 13 (the "love" passage). i decided to do a check on my heart and see how i was doing in the area of love. so i put my name in the place of love and read it through: Janalee is patient...Janalee is kind...Janalee does not envy...i could go no more b/c i knew my words were lies. had my pursuit for self-less love...