Inspired by Life

I've noticed you spend time by yourself. You're like a hermit to me during those times. Yet, your life is so full of activity. It doesn't make sense. Are you bi-polar? And that book - why do you love it so? You are so quick to open it for answers...so reluctant to close it before bed... Sometimes I wonder if you're not really alone. There is an essence that lingers near. I can't describe it. But I know it's there. It whispers with words I cannot understand. Somehow you seem to comprehend, and in your own words utter back... ...mutters of Contentment. Peace. Joy. It radiates from your being. Slightly jealous of this hidden friendship you have with nothing - it haunts me. ...You say you pray one day I will understand. I pray, too.

i was reading in Judges....basically the whole book is the Israelites turning from God, facing God's judgment, repenting, and turning back to God, then again, turning away - like over and over again! a little redundant, but God is so patient. praise Him for that! this is one of those times the Israelites plead with God to have mercy on them: "And the children of Israel said to the Lord, 'We have sinned! Do to us whatever seems best to You; only deliver us this day, we pray.' So they put away the foreign gods from among them and served the Lord. And His [God's] soul could no longer endure the misery of Israel." Judges 10:15-16 wow! how often have i prayed that prayer? 'God, just save me NOW in my time of need and i'll do whatever you ask me to do, just save me NOW from this mess i have got myself into.' i want. i plead for my own way. maybe i put conditions on the salvation of the Lord - He can do whatever He thinks is best, only.......[fill in ...

Some people don't get what i do for a living. Very simply - i live in a country that is consumed with appearance and i make money off people's vanity. Haha! Kind of joking, but seriously (after 2 1/2 years of experience, i have yet to have a client come to me that was satisfied with their appearance and just wanted to workout for health benefits). Truth: i work under the title "personal trainer" (but i like to call myself a "personal encourager"). Regardless of what your imagination conjures up at the thought of a personal trainer, i don't yell at my clients, i don't make people throw-up, i don't make people forever hate gym facilities/fitness, nor do i encourage weight loss (in fact, i hate scales and wished they didn't exist, but for the sake of science - i must use them). Maybe i'm not your typical trainer "as-seen-on-TV," but i would like to think that i am a normal, you know, average health professional striving for max...