i will not listen.

Plugging my ears to the sounds...
The outside world
Fighting to get inside my head,
To get inside something precious
Something already taken.
It has been sold;
There is no going back.
You cannot steal it.
Come on -
You're making me MAD!
This thing has fallen from your hands
Now in the arms of grace.
There is no going back
The deal that's done is DONE -
Done for life
I no longer belong to you.
PERIOD.
There is no hint of longing,
No tug at my soul,
To dive back into the misery before
The dread and fear...
The horible loneliness and isolation...
HA! to think you could even tempt me back
Be GONE!
Those things that used to call me
I can hear no longer.
My Master's words are no longer yours!
But alas...
My weak soul
Oh, heavy heart
Still hears the fainting cry
Of a past life
That is now not so forgotten.
To erase the memory
Not so simple.
But looking forward
I set my eyes like flint
Unmoving on my Master's plan,
I plug my ears to the sounds
That if i were to listen
Would become much louder.

JDog 2011

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