seeking my greatest love
"When you are truly in love, you go to great lengths to be with the one you love. You'll drive for hours to be together, even if it's only for a short while. You don't mind staying up late to talk. Walking in the rain is romantic, not annoying. You'll willingly spend a small fortune on the one you're crazy about. When you are apart from each other, it's painful, even miserable. He or she is all you think about; you jump at the chance to be together." - Crazy Love (Francis Chan)
I don't currently have an earthly lover so I don't feel like I truly understand this, but it causes me to think about my relationship with Jesus Christ, whom I often call my best friend. His friendship is the biggest blessing in my life and I pray will remain that way until I die.
However, I can't simply call Jesus my "lover," He is beyond that! We (His people) are His future BRIDE. I am a committed, promised heir. He is my fearless KING, my redeeming SAVIOR, my immovable ROCK (...I could go on endlessly)...so much more than a mere human man will ever be for me.
At times in my life it's obvious that I've been enraptured with God...I think about the times of crawling out of bed before the sun rose to be with Him...or the restless nights when He patiently listened to me talking...or curling into a ball to nestle in our over-stuffed closet to pray...or the numerous times sneaking into sanctuary to worship the Lord b/c I longed for the nearness of His presence...or standing on the edge of the heights and the depths of the valleys and marveling at the work of His hands...or the moments of thankfulness for His goodness...or the hours staring at world maps talking with Him about what He's doing all over the world.
But recently, it's been a struggle. I wake up with a million things going through my head and Jesus and His Word suddenly becomes another "thing" to fit in. WOAH! What happened? How does someone you love become just another person you have to make time for? Is this what couples talk about when they say for love to last you have to be intentional? Will it be every day for the rest of my life that I HAVE to choose Jesus...will it ever become automatic?
Regardless of the outcome, today I CHOOSE Jesus. I choose to seek 1st HIS kingdom. He is too precious for me to simply add Him as another "thing" in my day. May IT NEVER BE!
One hour, 60 minutes, a measly 4% of my day...is that so much to ask for the I AM? What has become a struggle will become, by God's grace, my greatest joy. I'm excited to run this race. Full steam ahead!
I don't currently have an earthly lover so I don't feel like I truly understand this, but it causes me to think about my relationship with Jesus Christ, whom I often call my best friend. His friendship is the biggest blessing in my life and I pray will remain that way until I die.
However, I can't simply call Jesus my "lover," He is beyond that! We (His people) are His future BRIDE. I am a committed, promised heir. He is my fearless KING, my redeeming SAVIOR, my immovable ROCK (...I could go on endlessly)...so much more than a mere human man will ever be for me.
At times in my life it's obvious that I've been enraptured with God...I think about the times of crawling out of bed before the sun rose to be with Him...or the restless nights when He patiently listened to me talking...or curling into a ball to nestle in our over-stuffed closet to pray...or the numerous times sneaking into sanctuary to worship the Lord b/c I longed for the nearness of His presence...or standing on the edge of the heights and the depths of the valleys and marveling at the work of His hands...or the moments of thankfulness for His goodness...or the hours staring at world maps talking with Him about what He's doing all over the world.
But recently, it's been a struggle. I wake up with a million things going through my head and Jesus and His Word suddenly becomes another "thing" to fit in. WOAH! What happened? How does someone you love become just another person you have to make time for? Is this what couples talk about when they say for love to last you have to be intentional? Will it be every day for the rest of my life that I HAVE to choose Jesus...will it ever become automatic?
Regardless of the outcome, today I CHOOSE Jesus. I choose to seek 1st HIS kingdom. He is too precious for me to simply add Him as another "thing" in my day. May IT NEVER BE!
One hour, 60 minutes, a measly 4% of my day...is that so much to ask for the I AM? What has become a struggle will become, by God's grace, my greatest joy. I'm excited to run this race. Full steam ahead!
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