The Baby Chronicles: LOG5: DAY30

It's only gotten harder as time goes on...more nausea, more tired, more emotional (my poor, gracious husband). Thankfully I still haven't thrown up, but somedays I wish I just would if it would make me feel better. 

Sleeping is hard, but it's all I want to do these days...every time I roll over, my breasts remind me that are very engorged, and my abs remind me that they're stretching and pulling to make way for a soon growing womb. I sleep with five pillows but can't really seem to get comfy (seriously, considering investing in a preggo body pillow, a matress topper, new sheets, a lighter comforter...maybe just a whole new bed haha!).

Couch naps have become by best friend, and I've embraced them (for the first time in my life). "After all," as my app says, "[I'm] running a baby-making factory that's in business 24/7" and I'm the only employee, so I'm on the clock around the clock (WHEW!). 

I have to force myself to eat (which is another big time first in MY LIFE for me...after all I'm a Walter by birth haha!). I know my new little baby needs those nutrients, but I'm never hungry. 

I cry, like a deep, raw, sad, kind-of-cry, what feels like every week (which is yet another totally new one for me)...topics varying from my job, to marriage, to finances, to marriage, and back to my job. I've crawled up in a ball of tears on the bathroom floor more times in the last 8 weeks than I did when I was desperately waiting for 2 years for my husband to get the green light paperwork to come to the U.S. So yeah...talk about a hormone shift.

Working full-time and a couple side hustles has a way of wearing me out aside from being pregnant. But we're trying to be prudent and save as much as we can now so when I go on maternity leave, we don't have to worry about finances. Dreaming of the day, I can go back to just 20 hours a week doing what I love and just loving on my kiddos the rest of the time. 

All in all, we're praising the Lord for relatively smooth sailing (I say "relatively" because I've never done this before), but honestly, I don't want to think about how many more months of this I have to go through before it's all over. LOL.