The Baby Chronicles: Log 8 : Day 149

25 weeks in and I made the rooky mistake of watching a birthing clip. ...officially terrified now of a baby going through my pelvic floor (GASP!?! ...deep breath). My midwife encouraged me to take an online pregnancy/birthing course at about 32-35 weeks...I should have listened. I was not ready to see that, and now I'm attempting to block out all thoughts of a baby swimming in amniotic fluid inside me knowing that one day he's going to have to come out. 

Trying to remind myself that God designed the woman's body to birth babies, and, trust me, He knew what he was doing when He created us women. The body is absolutely amazing because it's creator and designer is absolutely amazing. In a healthy body, everything works together in a beautiful harmony during the birthing process. I'm sure there will be some sensations I do not feel prepared for right now, but I know that God does not give His children things they cannot handle (aka: what He has not equipped them for).  

Now, ladies, before we start cursing Eve for being the first to sin and bringing labor pains on the rest of creation, let's not forget that what God told Eve in the garden was how a world living in sin would function. I'm relying on God's grace as a child of God, and I know I have been freed from the power of sin. My life isn't defined by the curse placed on sinful humanity. My mode of operation is different now: my Master has made me a slave to righteousness, and my mode of operation is Agape. 

So with that being said, I'm ready to meet this little man and watch a beautiful birthing story unfold right before my eyes, to stand back in awe and marvel at God's design, and witness a small miracle of life unfold before me. Three more months, little one...and I can hardly wait to meet my gift!

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