Humbleness...

So, God has been teaching me a little bit about humility lately. It's def a tough one to swallow. Pride, at least so i have heard, is one of the biggest struggles of sin in a Christian's life. That's how satan got kicked out of heaven right? so i guess it's pretty serious. So much of our pride is hidden in our lives, we don't even realize it...the devil is sneaky and gets it in there innocently enough, then BOOM! you turn around and are absolutely clueless as to how you even reached this point of severity?
...i've been in prayer a lot that God would reveal pride in my life - and WOW. what a shocker. def. i had no idea that i had such a big problem, til God opened my eyes. It always amazes me how much prayer changes my life. Prayer strips me of everything of this world...sitting/having time in the Lord's presence reveals the ugliness of sin compared to the purity of Christ. So God revealed a lot...
Then last night i was prayed over - prayer for healing of pride in my life. I was reminded by one of my sisters that it is something i will have to surrender DAILY. Give up to the Lord and humble myself before Him and others daily, even hourly. Oh, that God would instill in me a heart of surrender and humility. (that is my prayer)
Last night i went on a "treasure hunt" with some brothers and sisters on campus. We were specifically looking for people God would lead us to pray for - healing prayer like stuff. so - let me just tell you - AMAZING. amazing. When you give God a chance to speak and reveal himself to you. WOW. He will do it. I was in awe of the, i want to say "weird," but i will use instead "Spirit lead" stuff that we found ourselves in. Then we were up until midnight, worshiping the Lord and praying and praising His name. The Spirit of the Lord was upon us and it was evident that the Lord was present among our midst. It was beautiful and i didn't want to leave...a hunger was for more and more. "As a deer pants for the water, so my soul longs for You, Lord."
It is a small step in the direction of following in the ways of the Lord but it is an adventure. We are learning and growing together, but i have a feeling that this is only the beginning...

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